Saturday, February 7, 2009

Grinding To A Halt

Those of you who are still with me please have patience. I have not been reporting anything of much interest in the way of FLR lately. One reason is, there has not been a reason. The other reason, well, it does not exist either.

That is not saying that our FLR is over, just that we fell out of practice due to some very compelling circumstances. If you are still interested in my writing, please stay with us. I will occasionally produce more pontification, and may even report on current events. At some point I will return to the fun stuff. For now, we will have to wait for certain situations to resolve into manageable scenarios. Without getting too personal, I will mention some reasons for the lack of positive demonstration of our FLR.

Late last year I related that MW was facing elective surgery. The problem behind that has not gone away. She is still trying to deal with it and all of its implication. But another problem surfaced that tends to eclipse the pending surgery: advanced illness on her side of the family. This drains her strength and creates feelings of guilt. Adding to that her tendency to depression makes her life hard. My support of her problems is a given. I love her. But there is only so much that I can do.

We must wait for events outside of our control to take place, and then maybe we can resolve our participation. Meanwhile her interest is not in sex, not in my service to her, and not in anything that is truly positive. I regret my inability to help her. I do what I can. Don’t give up on us.

3 comments:

doll said...

SP,

although it will not be not obvious your strength and support will be of tremendous value to her. It will be the bedrock that enables her to function even though disease sucks the joy and resilience out of her.

Anonymous said...

Real life has a way of intruding, doesn't it?

We went through simlar business a few years ago. We were not in a FLR then, but it was very unpleasant.

Hang in there, things will work out.

Patty

Susan's Pet said...

Lovely Doll,

My wife indeed stated more than once that without my being with her, she would not be alive. I am not conviced of that, and I fear for her if I were to leave this life first.

Dear Patty,

Thank you for your kind words.

I don't feel sorry for myself, since I am well. But I do miss our good times. We are working on the problems. MW is aware of all this. I believe that all will be well in a while.